“Desconectarse”… meaning– to let go of the things that are inhibiting you from being who you should be.
When coming up with ideas on what to write I usually get inspired by a teacher, a class or something going on in my life. Rarely am I able to be ‘given’ a topic and the words flow. That’s just not how I work. This time was no different – this time the Universe stepped in and said, “OH! I’ll give you something to write about.” This is my first blog as a Cozy Orange Luminary and it’s exciting, yet nerve racking, but when I heard the topic was, Letting Go – it didn’t take long for all the reason to do just that, to appear.
Today, this week, this month has been a trying one – my yoga practice has been on full force but not in the way I would have traditionally imagined. I haven’t really practiced, my life has been an uphill climb between work, projects, friends, people and just the sh*t that God gives you to remind you how strong you are. Practice yoga? Where would I find the time, at least right now? On a recent trip to LA, I stopped by Cafe Gratitude and as I paid for “I am Grateful Beet Juice” and I am Eternal Raw Greek Salad Wrap” the cashier asked me if I wanted the daily question. Well, I had never heard of this so of course I said, Yes! The question of the day would become my mantra for all the days to follow, “What will you give away today?”
What will I give away? Is that material? Physical? Metaphorically? She said it could be anything – I thought about it for amoment and all the things I had been dealing with that day, all the traffic I encountered getting to LA, my injured knee, my overall dissatisfaction with how my life looked at that moment and I said, I give away frustration. To be honest it wasn’t the moment that I said it that I felt it leave my body but when I said it again and realized that that was my answer that I felt this weight shift. Frustration like anger, like jealousy, like greed, like poison – ONLY and always only will affect the person that feels it. When I made the decision to ‘give away’ my frustration for everything, that was the moment I let go. I let go of trying to control a situation or its outcome, I let go of how my being, my peace, my person felt and how it had become entangled in something that was clearly out of my control. I gave it away because the only thing I can control is me. I gave it away because it didn’t serve me any longer and it was this angel at Cafe Gratitude that would remind me of that.
What will you give away today? A mantra that you can ask yourself every morning, or maybe when you feel the world spinning out of control. A lot has happened this month in my life and every day I’ve had to ask myself this and get back on track. This is my yoga right now. It’s not an asana, it’s not so much a meditation but a conscious decision to keep moving forward and let go of anything holding me back.